I went walking at this one place called The Missions today. I usually love walking, but I was terrified to walk there because well, theres mountain lions and rattlesnakes there. The sights of them are rare and few but I know me and my luck and I would downright pee my pants if I ever saw either of them and my heart rate alone would kill me anyways, because I would be so terrified. I am not a nature girl. I wish I were, but unless I have my muscular dog with me, I am scared. On the bright side though, this park had horses, and donkey and sheep and bulls and pigs so I cant imagine that if it were really THAT unsafe with the mountain lion thing, that they would put these animals there.
My feet are so sore and its sad to realize that its because of my weight. But I had a nice moment with my body today. The missions has all these houses where you can see how monks lived and this one house had a very HUGE step and I stepped on it and then back down and then back up and then back again. At that moment, I was so appreciative of my entire being. Here I am, 200 some odd pounds, and my body was working its ass off to help me get up the step and down. It hasnt given up on me. Sometimes I think my mind does, but my body is yearning to keep me going. I whispered, "Thank you" to it and realized thats the kind of body loving I need. I cant always be saying, "I hate my body." when really, I should be hating the way I treat my body. I actually love my body!
I saw pictures of myself today and its a weird feeling, I looked really fat and I felt bad but it made me want some chips and dip. Teehee.
Also, I went ahead and ordered Xflowsion. I'll let you guys know how it goes.
