I dont always have a title.

Hello, people.

I didnt write yesterday, I forgot and by the time I remembered it was already a new day. But Im writing now and thats whats important.

I didnt eat in the best manner today. I am starting to notice how some foods make me sick, but I eat them anyways. Why do I do this? I really have no idea. I just do it. Boredom, depression, or maybe a bit of both.

My cousin is coming to visit. Thats going to be fun, because I havent had a friend in about 9 months, so its been kind of lonely. I will be very happy to see her and I have confessed to her my weight gain, which released such a burden. I mean, when I moved to California I was safely 180 pounds, which was still heavy but now I am 237 pounds. Thats a big difference.

And how about the other night I exercised, right. Then I get done, and I could barely walk. It was like I was being punished for trying. I had the resistance on 1 and then 3 and then 5 and my legs felt like they were going to fall the eff off. Unbelievable. So I havent worked out since, and Im disappointed by that. But now I know the next time I do(which I am planning on being tomorrow.) I will only take the resistance up to 3. Anything higher than that for right now is pushing it. I took some ibuprofen so hopefully that will help. I really want to do this. Ive noticed when I exercise, I am more motivated to eat healthier. Make sense?

I hope these blogs get more interesting. LOL I usually am a lively person, but I am crawling out of this mess I have made. Its going to take time, but what else have I got?