Ok. This was going to be a good, happy, upbeat blog. But I decided to do some research and now I am disturbed and somewhat disappointed with myself.
First, let me say that a food journal is a MUST for me. I started one tonight because I was curious. All I had to eat until about 9 pm today was chips and that salsa con queso crap. I didnt eat allot of chips, but I managed to down that whole container of the salsa. Not in one sitting mind you. Id eat some, go away for a couple of hours, go back, get some more, and then be satisfied for awhile and then go back again, and in between I was drinking water.(No capri suns for me today, yay!) Well then, at 9 I was hungry so my boyfriend and I split a pear. And then I ran to the store and bought a microwave pizza. I looked at the box which didnt seem too bad because I was seriously under the impression that my food intake for the day was good. And then I came home and I was like, Ok I should start a food diary.
Reader, my food intake was not good. At all.
That yummy salsa con queso? Yeah, that had 39 g of fat and 52 g of carbs. OMG!! I did the math on it. 3 g of fat per serving, the can holds 13 servings. I multiplied the 3 x 13 and got 39! I nearly peed my pants/vomited.(but I didnt because at this point the last thing I need is a friggin eating disorder!) Holy crap. And the carbs! OMG! I will probably stay away from this stuff for a very long time. The pear was the healthiest thing I ate and I only ate half of it!! And that pizza! Holy crap!
Ok, but I cant let this get me down. I didnt sit on my butt all day. I was running errands, running back and forth to the laundry room and shopping. So I got SOME exercise. I told my boyfriend about the salsa addiction and surprisingly, he said he thinks we could both stand to change our diet. He also pointed out that the cheese was hard to clean off the dishes and that if 120 degree water couldnt do it, it must be HORRIBLE for my body. I never thought of it that way. So while it was hard to confess, I am glad I did because I was able to think of it more sensibly and that will help me to not purchase it anymore. Confessions are hard but I am starting to realize confessing is the way to go because the sooner you get it off your chest it doesnt "eat" you up anymore. Seriously. I was so scared to tell anyone that I was gaining weight, but Im starting to tell people and its taking the pressure off of me.
I AM doing good with the no eating out thing though. Thats something I dont see myself messing up with, unless I choose something healthy. I am over the whoppers, the king size fry, the chicken carbonara sandwich, and the chicken strips...all the crap.
Just thank God I started the food journal today! What scares me is that I ran to the store tonight to get some food and I walked up and down the aisles with the chips, daring myself to get yet another container of that salsa shit. I mean, it was really hard for me to decide not to. I give myself major points for that. It would have been so easy to come home and finish off that container plus the pizza.
I havent lost any weight, but dear reader, I havent gained any either! Im just hanging tough at 237. Im going to exercise now and hopefully the scale will budge in the morning. Not couting on it though.
New goal: 229
Ultimate goal: 145
UPDATE: 2:10 am: I just found out that my favorite stuff for sandwiches, Dietz and Watson, is actually sold in California and at a store that is LOCAL!! Its the best delicacies ever. SO healthy for you! I cant wait to go to the store and get some!
