Confession: I am starting to "get it."

Well, it wasnt until last night that I officially got it: Love my body. This doesnt mean to be conceited and skinny like no ones business, but to love my body, take care of it. Nurture it. I was in awe, why did it take me 25 years? Suddenly dieting seems so easy. Just treat my body the way that I want to be treated. It all comes down to that. Im so excited.

I am fat. I have stopped eating after 7pm. Today is day 3 of that. Im doing very well. My plan is to go for 7 days. And I cant believe how easy it is after a couple of days. The body gets used to it and I wake up energetic and ready for the world.

Everyones life is changing. Its weird how once you hit your 20s its suddenly like life is flying. You spend all of your childhood dreaming of adulthood, and then all of your adulthood dreaming about being a child again. Life was simple. I was told I was fat when I was a kid, but I was always running around being happy and fat that I didnt care. I only started caring when I was a teenager and then more and more people started pointing out my size. Anyways, yeah I feel like Im going to be 26 soon and then 30. I have no accomplished what I wanted. I wanted to have a book published, a job at a publishers company, and a house of my own with my own animals, possibly raising my sisters children. To be in love would be nice, but I am not the type to really fall apart without a man. Lonliness does not scare the eff out of me.

So the job is interesting. Im meeting nice friends finally and Im even going out Friday night. How on earth am I going to stay up late though? I dont drink. I love my sleep. Im going to stick out like a sore thumb though since the girls I work with are like....pretty. Oh well. Im pretty too. Fat does not ugly make. Teehee. I bought a poster board today to put up in my home gym. I rock.

The other day at work I had to escort a blind woman to the restroom. And silly me, I am like walking her to there right and I hear myself say, "Hold on, I'll turn on the light for you." I felt this big. Luckily she had a good sense of humor about it. Today some guy got bit by a baby rattlesnake. Poor guy. Poor snake. Poor everyone involved. They showed me the snake and I was like "Awwww!" The snake was dead though and Im sure the patient didnt like the fact that I was getting attached to the poor dead baby snake. And then people go into the ER for the weirdest things, things that have URGENT CARE written all over them. And Urgent care even has a lower copay too! Oh well.

Ok. Im off to re-do this blog some more. I miss all you bloggers! Keep in touch!